Update

Hi...

Been busy sorting things out in my life. My physical health has gotten a lot better. My mental health has also improved. But still I always think things could be better. I should work harder in every aspect of my life. Not give in to laziness. And I've gotten soooooooooooo lazy the past years. At least compared to how I used to be.

Written somewhere around may 2015...

The same but not the same

It's been a while since my last update and so much has happened. But then again nothing happened much really.

I still have this auto-immune disease. I still feel sad and lonely once in a while (but who doesn't). I still enjoy my k-drama's and Thai lakorns. I still watch a movie every now and then. I still meet up with my friends. I still like to play around with Adobe programs. I still love eating delicious food even if preparing it myself might not be as good as the original dish. I still love my parents (oh my). I still miss my relatives overseas. I still haven't been able to visit them. It's been 5 years now.

Processing food

Been cleaning up en compressing my harddrive. Wish I had the money to purchase the all and powerful Mac Pro! I'm not technical oriented, meaning I don't give a d*rn as long as it works to my needs.... Besides I don't have the patients to figure it out on my own. I'd rather have a technical nerd explain it to me than trying to grasp to notion of :

* The Quad-Core Intel Xeon processor
* 64-bit architecture
* L3 cache
* DDR3 ECC SDRAM at either 1066MHz or 1333MHz
* Error Correction Code (ECC) corrects single-bit errors and detects multiple-bit errors automatically. That’s especially important in mission-critical and compute-intensive environments.
*24 virtual core
*Performance is enhanced because Hyper-Threading enables the processor to take better advantage of the execution resources available in each core.
* A bidirectional, point-to-point connection — called QuickPath Interconnect — gives the Intel Xeon processors quick access to the disk, I/O, and other Mac Pro subsystems.

myself HAHA. Something as basic as this is sold at the minimum price of $2499.00 -€2035,40 OMG.
Ahhhhh, I'll keep on dreaming of me hitting a jackpot someday.....soon....

Chapters, drafts and sketches

Instead of continuing with the abstract thingy I mentioned yesterday, I took a complete different route....
I finished up adding a few more swatches in Illustrator...just to bulk up my collection  - -"...and came up with an idea for a page in my portfolio.
It all started with this idea on paper.

One night I was scribbling away on little pieces of paper I had laying around on my desk. After coming up with an idea on how to present my stuff to the outside world physically, (being it potential clients or employers) I now had to figure out what I want say and what my work is going to portray.
You can see the results in the following pics.
The colours I've chosen are just for contrast purposes...and to get a general idea on the physical look of the design.

Portfolio

Oh gosh, I was supposed to update more regularly but failed again.
I haven't been sitting still though...

Done some soulsearching....some what true...but not entirely.
Have been messing around with a portfolio or what not.
And I've figured it's pretty hard to put together something you haven't been able to put your mind to for quite some time. I wish I wasn't as ill as I have been. I wish I had enough energy to just be able to scribble on a piece of paper long enough that could have been of some use to me now, instead of having to take a 30 minutes break every time I moved an inch in or out of bed.

Other than fatigue, I was also lacking inspiration. But that's what you get from facing 4 walls(more or less) over a time periode of 2 years. And that's aside from visiting a few friends every now and then (once every 2 to 3 months). Just because I wasn't physically able to.

I've been missing photography a LOT. Once I was able enough to sit behind a computer for more than 10 minutes I finally bought a battery charger! And I've been taking some pics lately. Too bad I'm not happy with most of them hahaha. They're all nature and shots of doggies. I'll upload them soon.

But back to the portfolio. My interest are pretty broad in the literal sense of the word and so it's making it very hard for me to decide what to USE or create that's good enough for my portfolio.
I want to keep it simple and clean with an explosion of my eclecticness on DISC...LOL...
I've been wanting to create an abstract thingy with Photoshop today but decided in the end (after nearly finishing the darn thing) to RECREATE it in Illustrator! But then I stumbled upon some lovely color swatches that I HAD to add to my collection...and ended up adding them to my Illustrator swatch library.... I don't have a lot of money and so I just added them by hand which took me an entire evenening! Hence making it impossible for me to finish the abstract thingy in Illustrator before DAWN, having not even started with creating the much needed basic PATTERNS.

Abstract thingy in PS nearly finished

Swatches in AI

Anywho, I'll start on that first thing tomorrow! And so I bid you goodnight for now....

Poem for Nickelodeon

I got a little restless and so I've created a birthday card (poem card) for a

former colleague. His name is Nick (but my nickname for him is Nickelodeon), a married man with two children. He does have the link to this blog....so I hope he wont visit anytime soon, unless it's AFTER he received this card! I still have 20 days left, till the actual day, and so there's some editing time left.

The birthdaycard stays. 

But I think I'll keep the color variety, variety in layout and the font "Baar Sophia" for the poem part.

Everything else is susceptible to change haha!

Birthdaycard
Gefeliciteerd = Congratulations (in Dutch)

Bad memory

I can't recall when I've last written a letter...

Things used to be so simple. 

As a child you'd have the least worries in the world.

The hardest thing you'd have to think about was how to win at a game played outside with friends or how to please your parents in order to receive affection or praise (or gifts ....hehe).